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Confessions of Faith: Letting Go

The way to love anything is to realize that it may be lost.~G.K. Chesterton

“I miss you baby.”Letting go

Four simple words coasting through my inbox on a typical Wednesday afternoon. I read them over a few times, my cheeks flush with emotion, brow puckered in consternation, suddenly conscious of every single beat of my heart. A slow dawning of knowledge; the acceptance that I miss him too.

Letting go of love is not easy…we’re conditioned to hang onto what we value most by any means necessary. Can anyone name anything more valuable than love? I can’t.

Which is why it makes all the sense in the world that there are moments when I miss him. I feel a tiny pinch of sadness along with the dull ache of pained nostalgia as I think about how he has no idea that I’m currently obsessed with lipstick. I wasn’t able to brag to him when I realized that I’ve reached the level of literary maturity required to say with confidence that I finally get Toni Morrison. He doesn’t know what my current favorite song on the radio is because I no longer lie in bed beside him and sing off key. He wasn’t there to tease me when I signed up for a 21 day meditation challenge, knowing that the recesses of my mind are full of words waiting to be written the moment I stop and give them space to rise. He doesn’t know that I started wearing glasses for night driving. He’s never breathed in the unique scent of my latest perfume. He has no idea that my new catch phrase is ‘Yowza!’, used at random to convey shock, awe or excitement, depending upon inflection.

In other words, he doesn’t know me anymore. He hasn’t kept up with current events. I can only assume what’s true for me is true for him. What’s changed and what’s stayed the same? I have no idea and it saddens me that I don’t know. I have no idea who his current favorite UFC fighter is, or what class he’s taking in his constant pursuit of further education. I haven’t been forced to watch the discovery channel on the off chance that we might someday have to survive in the wild, so I don’t have a clue what our boy, Bear, is up to lately. I don’t know what kinds of sugary sweets he keeps in the back of his pantry, while swearing up and down that he doesn’t eat junk food. It’s not my place to find the hidden Oreos and gloat. I don’t know if he’s sporting a five o’clock shadow, a clean shaven head or a low fade. I don’t know if he still runs a few miles a day, or if his fondness for Guinness has finally manifested in a beer paunch.

He misses me. Of course he does. I miss him. Of course I do. We used to slow dance without music in the living room. I shared my poetry with him and he looked at me and really saw me. The light from the pride shining in his eyes was bright enough to guide home ships lost at sea. He literally kissed away my tears before, catching each one with his lips as they fell.  We used the bathroom with the door open, and thought nothing of flicking a foreign object from each other’s nose. Gross, but true. We were family.

You all know how the story ended. He wants to start over, requesting my friendship if nothing else. He thinks that what happened can be delegated to a single chapter in the story of us. I don’t know if that’s true or not. I closed the book and placed it on a shelf. I put 450 miles between us and wished it were a continent. We haven’t laid eyes on each other in over a year and five months.

Naturally, my first instinct is to hang on. To hold close the affection I carried for so long. But, my hands stay open, letting it all go like sand sifting through shifting fingers. Because here’s what I do know: if having un-denied access to the various nuances of me wasn’t enough, then space must be made for someone who will appreciate the experience.

I also know that I’m not alone in this. That there are others with open palms denying the adage that a bird in the hand is worth two in the bushes. People who have already lived in the shadows, lost and unsure, and are not afraid to stand alone in the light of truth.

XoXo,

Faith

He didn’t have an S stitched on his shirt and he didn’t own a pitchfork. He was an ordinary man ripped, like the rest of us, by wrath and love. ~  Toni Morrison. “Love”

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Nigeria Lockley is in our Author Spotlight!

I’m thrilled to have had the opportunity to interview debut novelist Nigeria Lockley and get the deets on her new release ‘Born at Dawn’! This author has been hailed as ‘one to watch’ and has already earned a place on my short list of favorite Christian Fiction authors. I hope you enjoy!

What’s your name or pen name?

Nigeria Lockley

What are your genres?

I currently write Christian Fiction.

What have you written?

My first novel Born at Dawn is scheduled to be released September 30, 2014.Author166 (800x532)

When did you begin your writing career?

That depends on what you consider a writing career. I’ve been writing since I could hold a pen in my hand, but I received my first publishing contract in 2013.

Are you a full-time or part-time writer? How do you make time to write?

I am a part-time writer. I use my spare moments to write, which includes typing during my commute to and from work, late nights, and lunch breaks.

What’s your writing process? (Number of days you write per week, a.m. or p.m., specific music you play while writing, or anything else that you feel is a vital part of your creative process.)

I need absolute quiet when I’m working at home. I don’t know why, but when I’m at home I cannot deal with any distractions. When I’m at Starbucks or on the train I can tune everything out, but at home I need peace and quiet to get anything done.

Do you keep a journal? If so, for how long? Do you find it helpful for your professional writing?

I keep a journal for my personal and spiritual development. I’m not consistent enough for it be effective or helpful for professional use. The notepad on my phone has been the most useful for keeping effective notes that can be used for my professional writing.

What’s your inspiration?

My inspiration comes from real life and I get confirmation from the Lord on whether or not to pursue the story. For instance, when I began writing my current work in progress, Seasoned with Grace there were a lot sermons being preached about the grace of God and I knew that this was the story line for me to develop.

What kind of legacy do you expect your writing to leave?

I want to be remembered as the writer whose work was edifying and entertaining. I’d like to be remembered for making bold choices and being true to what I believe in.

What advice would you give to aspiring writers?

Write what is in you. Don’t think about the readers, the editor, or the publisher. Begin with the story you want to tell and then tailor it to suit the needs of the reader, match the suggestions of the editor, and the demands of the publisher. Don’t just tell a story tell your story.

What’s on your bookshelf or in your e-reader library?

My bookshelf is a wild mix—Emerson and bell hooks are right next to Tiffany L. Warren. My eReader is jam-packed with some great Christian Fiction by E.N. Joy, Michelle Stimpson, Michelle Lindo-Rice, and Vanessa Miller to name a few. I’m currently reading, Are You There, God? by Theresa A. Campbell.

What are you currently working on?

I’m currently working on Seasoned with Grace, my second novel. In which Grace King, a volatile model with aspirations of becoming an actress, is placed on probation for assault and is forced to do community service at church. While doing community service not only does she meet the man of her dreams, while serving him on the food pantry line, but she also encounters some demons from her past. Grace must figure out whether she can fight those demons off to achieve her dream or be held captive by them once again.BORN-AT-DAWN-FRONT

Latest release and book blurb?

My latest release, Born at Dawn, is scheduled to be released September 30, 2014 and is currently available for pre-order today!

Thirty-four year old Cynthia Barclay knows that marriage is supposed to be for better or for worse. Unfortunately, for the last ten years of her marriage Cynthia has experienced the worst that marriage has to offer at the hands of her abusive husband Marvin Barclay. With the hope of saving herself and her family she turns to the Lord. Expecting to see God manifest himself greatly in her life sooner than later Cynthia is not content just waiting. She wants out.

Abandoning her hope, her husband, and her two young sons Cynthia boards a bus from New York City to Richmond, Virginia. She begins a new life armed with six thousand dollars on a prepaid credit card, a sketchy plan for success, and a promise to return for her sons. That is until she meets Cheo, a photojournalist with enough connections to take her where she wants to be and forget where she came from.

After six years in Richmond Cynthia’s dark past resurfaces. At the risk of losing it all—her past and her present Cynthia returns home to right her wrongs. Has Cynthia chosen the right time to return home or is it too late for God to restore everything she has broken?

Tell us about your main character? What actress or actor would you cast to play him or her in a movie about your book?

Cynthia Barclay is battered, confused, and blames herself for everything that has gone wrong in her life. In an attempt to fix it she turns to the Lord and when that doesn’t go as she expected it to she takes matters into her own hands. When Born at Dawn is turned into a film I would love for Taraji P. Henson or Nicole Beharie from the movie 42 would be great as Cynthia.

How can we purchase your work?

Born at Dawn is available wherever books are sold including:

Amazon: http://amzn.to/1i6VKs0

Barnes and Noble: http://bit.ly/1izSGRU

The Burning Bush (independent Christian bookstore): http://bit.ly/1sJAY6K

Books-a-Million: http://bit.ly/1gRLvTV

How can we stay in touch with you?

To keep up with me you can find me all over the web:

Website: www.nigerialockley.com

Facebook: www.facebook.com/authornigerialockley

Twitter and Instagram: @NewNigeria

STAY TUNED FOR MY REVIEW OF ‘BORN AT DAWN! ANY QUESTIONS FOR NIGERIA? LEAVE THEM BELOW!

PRE-ORDER ‘BORN AT DAWN’ HERE.

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Very Inspiring Blogger Award!

My heart is full at receiving another blogger award! This one is very dear to me as it is given for being a very inspiring blogger. That’s one of my number one reasons for blogging. I love to motivate and inspire people. I’m grateful to Kim Gosselin of kimgosselinblog.com for nominating me. Please check out her wonderfully positive blog about family, blessings and life lessons. You’ll love it!

blogger award

Now on the award. I’m supposed to nominate 15 other bloggers for the award, but that seems super daunting to me. I’ll just put it like this: if you’re a blogger and you’re reading this, then I nominate you. I’m sure that’s against all sorts of rules, but you’re obviously a person of excellent taste so I think it’s okay. If it’s not then I suppose the award committee will come and take my award away…that would suck.

I’m also supposed to list seven interesting facts about myself. Here goes:

1. I’m currently obsessed with lipstick, especially the Butter line by NYX. I’ve sworn off all other forms of make up for a while and lipsticks have become my security blanket. I think I’ll do a blog post about WHY I’ve sworn off other make up soon. The reason is more complex than you might think.

2. I’m having separation anxiety about my first novel. It’s past time for it to go to the editor, but I keep putting off my final read through of the last few chapters. The thought of letting it go and starting to write my next novel makes me hyperventilate.

3. I have issues. See number 2.

4. I have a passport without a single stamp in it yet. That can either be seen as a testament to my unwavering optimism or as a kind of pathetic fact. Your choice.

5. Public speaking terrifies me, but acting doesn’t. I have no idea why. Maybe it’s because when I act, I become someone else. Maybe I need to invent an alternate persona to help me speak publicly about my book and perform my poems. Something like Faith Fierce? See number 3.

6. I attract weirdos like bees to honey. Unusual people consistently seek me out at grocery stores, social gatherings, etc. I guess like does indeed attract like.

7. I primarily enjoy receiving these blogger awards because it affords me the opportunity to talk about one of my favorite subjects: me! I’m okay with that.

DO YOU LIKE TO TALK ABOUT YOURSELF? DO YOU SOMETIMES BREAK THE RULES? TELL US AN INTERESTING FACT ABOUT YOURSELF! 

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Avoiding Distractions While Writing

Faith Simone:

Practical advice and tips from a seasoned writer. Check it out, you won’t regret it!

Originally posted on Michelle Stimpson.com:

Fellow author Jeaninne Stokes and I recently corresponded about a common question: How do you keep from getting distracted by your writing while writing. Specifically, if you’re working on chapter three, how do you keep from going back and fixing something in chapter one without getting stuck in chapter one again?

Just so you know: I am not the queen of staying-on-track. However, I have devised a few tricks that keep me from getting completely derailed when I write.

1. Write description later – If I’m writing a restaurant scene and I have no idea what the restaurant looks like, but I know exactly what I want my characters to say to one another at their table conversation, I skip to the conversation because I don’t want to mess up my flow. I make myself a note in the text (see below) and then I come back through and describe the…

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Know Me…

silhouette of man and woman

I don’t just want a man to hold me

I long for someone to know me

Console me…Intimately explore me

Then grow me and show me

That true love is so much more

Than any man has ever told me

Not interested in sex with the ex

Or even the next

Unless…

He chooses me

Not to use me

Never to abuse me

Willing to lay down his pride for me

Wife me…and commit his life to me

I don’t need a man to pay my way for me

Not looking for one to fight my battles for me

Just ride beside me and

Understand the passions that drive me

Take time to see me for me

No comparison to any woman who ever came before me

Except to confess

That they were so much less

Than the one he has now…

Cream of the crop

In other words ‘the best’

Never bringing the stress

Flying past every test

Got your heart drumming

Staccato beats in your chest

Yet still bringing your soul

To that place of rest

So will the brother

That considers him self able

To meet this challenge

And abide at my table

Make him self known so that he can

Feast on my delicacies

Grow strong on my heartiness

Compliment all about me that is savory

And indulge in my sweetness?

But only if you are ready to

Know me…

Did you relate to this poem?

Read more like it by purchasing “Voices from the Block’, the wonderful anthology I’m featured in!

Click here to check it out.  You won’t be disappointed!

 

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